"But dear I have been uneasy since yesterday didn't really sleep well. Don't know why. I just feel tension.
A lot of it....it has been reoccuring to be honest. I don't know what it Is. I prayed this morning. Still praying for peace and clarity".
These were the words of a bossom loved one in a chat I received at about 11am on a Monday morning. I felt great concern for this person and wanted to help. I proceeded to ask him questions about his thought pattern of late and if there was anything he had been very deeply worried about that it not only preoccupied his thoughts but may have gone on to create great tension and anxiety even in the subconscious.
He denied a couple more options and suggestions I raised in the discussion that, aimed at crossing out possible scenarious with the hope to arrive at the most likely cause of his tension.
As the conversation (chat) grew older, a sense of clarity though still foggy, began to emerge. With respect, he shared something that I felt was very deep.
"Coz there's a level of dissatisfaction I've been feeling with the quality of my spirituality"...
Now this, caught my attention. He's a Christian by the way and he has his ideologies about religion, faith, life and daily living. A very energetic, smart, wildly humoured, corporate oriented, civilised young man in his early 30s.
He seemed to me, not to really be the type who cared about such issues as "spirituality" let alone feel "dissatisfied" about where he was on that scale. Quite frankly, I'd have sworn he is a party animal; a man tailored by ye adrenaline rush of adventure. A man without a care in the world. Well, this taught me better.
So EZiii as I call him, has a little "more" to give from within. Many of us may have been in his situation before. Be it in our faith (in a supreme being) or in our feeling about direction in life.
I read on as he went further to express himself, opening up more as he unravelled his situation before me. He wrote alot though in not so many words. I had a lot to say to him. It may appear to be solely for Christian folk but I guarantee that there are lessons that even the non Christian could take away from the content of my advice to him. These were my words to him then and they are my words to you now.
It's got to be conscious. Christianity is CONSCIOUS every step of the way.
It is not coincidental, it's not a pass time affair, it's not an entertainment to scenario that takes no effort other than availability and in some cases access of cash, it's not a bandwagon drill, it's not a peer pressure skit, it's not an adrenaline rush affair, it's not a scheme.
It's a conscious decision to BELONG TO a force higher than us...and to see Him in every thing we do and everything we are a part of. We already belong to a higher force than ourselves in our distinct individualities. Thus, the use of the word "belong" is adopted in the capacity of "action"...action in proactivity and pragmatism and not in mere state of being in its noun form.
When you recreate a path back to Him in the adjective Christianity, it will make it hard for you to live a certain kind of life. Your bank of committing certain sins with excuses to justify them will become offensive even to you. It will make it easier to tell yourself the truth. It will make it easier for you not to make light of your wrong and infuse in you a higher sense of responsibility.
By "higher" I mean to include and expressly refer to the Divine standard of "being" which is not as far fetched or illusive or imaginative as many preachers make it appear or many falters make it look. You'll be closer to God not just in your heart and spirit but in your actions and mindset too. You'll be able to hear Him better and even decipher situations around you with more productivity than docility.
Christianity isn't synonymous to boredom or ignorance. It's the complete opposite...giving meaning to life, interpretation to experience and "finiteness" to challenge and difficulty.
True Christianity frowns at docility which this case created for "consciousness" serves to elucidate.
TO BE CONSCIOUS means to put effort. It means to make decision. It means to institute drive to ensure that that decision is followed through. It means to fight hard and rough not to derail and when we see that we are, we fight just as hard or even more to get back on track...To be conscious means not to allow chance toy with our existence.
It means to have focus. It means to remind oneself of what it takes to STAY conscious and what it means to be otherwise. It means not to entertain or create excuses not to follow through.
It's not just about breathing because even the subconscious state of being hangs on the existence of the conscious state of being. Even the unconscious depends on the reality of breath. It's about adopting a mindset and psychology that fuels your output, character, personality, purpose and achievement in both mind, body, spirit, and ambition.
Make ur walk back to OUR FATHER CONSCIOUS.
